This week, I determined it was time for me to make a checklist. There are so many different things for us to "work on," that only with a checklist can we try to work on all of it. Sitting, tummy time, crawling position, standing, feeding, hearing aid, signing time, the list is about 15 different items. It's a bit overwhelming. Our OT said that Andi needs to start putting weight on her legs, otherwise, they might not grow right. So, everyday we have our chores cut out for us.
I can't believe one week from today, Andi will be one year old. She's the size of maybe a six month old. I often have to remind myself of what all she's been through, and not get lost in the where she is -vs- where she should be. Honestly, it's hard sometimes. I've been watching the final Oprah shows, and yesterday's show had one of Oprah's favorite guests of all time. This lady on whom was on her way home when her car was struck by a teen drunk driver, and she was severely burned. Her face and body melted. She has had over 120 surgeries. Several years ago when she was on the show, she told Oprah that she only allowed herself to cry five minutes a day. Five minutes a day to grieve her loss, her pain, her life. It was very moving, very inspirational. It just goes back to when you start feeling bad about your lot, your situation, to remember that someone next door, or even down the street is probably fighting a battle much more difficult than you. It helps to keep things in perspective, keep things positive.
So we move forward with a checklist of items to work on. Keep things in focus and moving ahead. Marching onward with a checklist, and a good attitude. Grateful.
Celebrate even the smallest achievement with lots of "yay's!" and kisses! :) I spent this morning taking a very sick friend home from work. She was all talk of ending it all because she was sick of being sick! Honestly, you just picked me up from such a sad place! Knowing what I have, I should be shouting from the rooftops how blessed I am, and then helping others who are not in the boat with me! HUGS and LOVE to you and the Bean!
ReplyDeleteamen sister! inch by inch. i recently played a game of chutes and ladders with one of my grandchildren, and was struck by how much it resembled life. keep grabbing for that next rung and remember why you are doing it. stay strong. andi couldn't ask for better, more dedicated parents. nanny molly, a loving member of andi's village.
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