4th Birthday Photo Session

4th Birthday Photo Session

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Saying Goodbye

Andi Bean's great-grandmother, whom she never met, was laid to rest yesterday.  It's more than unfortunate that Andi didn't get to meet her, it's sad.  It got me thinking about all the things we haven't done or don't yet feel comfortable doing, fear keeping us from living fuller, richer lives.  So, we've decided to change directions and start pushing ourselves.  It really started a week or two ago, going out for Indian food as a family.  It's a fairly nice place, and here everyone gave the baby-in-the-carseat an ol' 'uh-oh' double-take when we came in the door.  She was a peach and it all went off so smoothly, that it gave courage to do it again, and again. Yesterday, it was brunch with the girls, then shopping.  Andi experienced her first shoe department, wide-eyed and taking it all in.  Luckily, she was witnessing her auntie in action... a professional shopper.  It was glorious day, although she did not drink her mimosa!

So, in addition to saying a sad goodbye to Andi's great-grandma, we're saying goodbye to fear.  Fear has kept us locked up most of winter, trying to avoid germs and colds, although we spend more time at the Kaiser campus with a bunch of sick people, than we do anywhere else.  It's time to stop hiding from life,  time to grab onto it and chase it down.  Therefore, we will be rocking it around town, going just about whatever we want.  It's time to live and stop hiding.  It's time to say goodbye in more ways than one.  Well, maybe we'll start when the rain stops.

2 comments:

  1. it is nice to see that you are making positive changes in your life in reaction to the loss of your grandmother. i'm sure she would be pleased with that legacy.

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  2. I'm sorry for the loss of your grandmother. My kids got to know my grandma pretty well, and they still talk about her like she's still here. Keep her alive in stories for Andi! I'm glad you are dissing that ol' fear monster and stepping out more with the Bean! I have, on more than one occasion lately, been tempted to jump in the car for a solo road trip (maybe even up to see you guys!) But, that would be me running away from all my stresses--which are nothing compared to what you have been through. So, again, I will vow to not WHINE so much, and to WINE more often! :)

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